The older I get the more I am aware I have no moderation in anything. It's like someone forgot the shut off button with this model.
I love crossfit. I would say I do crossfit, not that I am a crossfitter. Those of you that do it know what I'm talking about. Don't get me wrong, I see the benefits and the whole community aspect, as well as health and hard work that goes in and mental component of it, but as much as I love it I know I am one of those people that gets easily bored with the routine (even if it is an ever changing one...it's still a routine)...this is why I don't run (mile after mile...same thing, it is mentally impossible for me). So currently, I am down with another injury...because I do not know when to stop...I even reduced my crossfit to 3 times a week (from 5-6), but I still do stuff on my own at least 3 more days...fabulous... because you know what I've been doing for now almost a week...nothing, exercise wise anyhow, due to an ass muscle spasm that is pulling on my back and hamstrings making sitting uncomfortable, let alone working out. I'm having issues getting out of bed...how old am I you ask?!...34. Yup, that is sad. What is even sadder, I know this and have done it before yet here we are...same thing again. Now, I probably wouldn't feel the need to exercise so hard and much if I only had any control/moderation as far as my eating habits go, but I don't.
This is the reason I quit drinking. It is not that I drank every day (or even every week), but when I did I rarely would stop before I was drunk. It was like every drink was a shot and it was some kind of a race (that was clearly only in my own head). Now my friends do not think it was a big deal, but I think if something you're doing as fun and for pleasure lands you in jail and you have to pay stiff fines (as opposed to going on a nice vacation with your hard earned money) it is a fucking problem. Or so I quit before it becomes one. And how's the sober life, you ask?! Well I did shed a few drinking friends...which is fine. However, if you think that quitting drinking, smoking or whatever else you're doing will help you save money...you're wrong. You just find something else to replace it with. I did. Exercise. And you're like how's that bad?! I know, there's worse things, however if you still treat it like you did your previous obsession (for me that means no moderation, it is not swell, I can tell you that).
I notice this no moderation thing is a common theme in my life... I do it in relationships (I'm in love third day...spoke to the guy twice, yet I am all in my head and googly eyed... planning our future), I do it with friendships (hang out, love a person than get bored), work, research (I will read every God damn article on a set of new windows I plan on having installed, birth control and so on)...absolutely everything. No crap I burn out fast. And you're like who cares, how's this blog worthy?! Well, I think now that I know about it I can address it. Even so... I feel every blog should be entertaining and funny...well they won't be. Some days there's funny and entertaining stuff to write about and other days there isn't.
Side note...the other day I am talking with one of my gym clients and I told her I am going to Kid Rock concert (yay! also it's been years I've gone to a concert) and she had no idea who he was. She's 23...I'm like "are you fucking kidding me?"...nope dead serious. (I didn't sing because even if I did she wouldn't know who he was, actually especially then she would be confused..did I mention I am not a singer?!). But c'mon really, who has never heard of Kid Rock...we are not friends anymore and I can no longer have you as a client, because you are seriously unwell. Am I that behind times and people actually have no idea who anyone is...Kid Rock, Bob Marley, Velvet Underground...wtf is this world coming to?!
Also, as you can see ADD has no moderation. It strikes me every day and it can be at any given moment and my writing just gets sidetracked. I do appreciate those of you that can follow my "crazy train" of thought (that was an Ozzy reference...hopefully some of you caught that :)).
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